As I look at it all, I hope that some begin to grasp what I had to contend with, what I had to juggle in my mind for fifteen years or sixty, depending on how you count. The interconnections of paradigms of nonsense, the quirky behaviours, the lies, delusions, confusion and the source of it all are vast. That's really the only reason for this post. The point, as I see it, is to make it easier for everyone else to kick that door in. It is the culmination of a journey the human race has been on since the beginning. As far as I am concerned, it was the Flower Power generation that kicked in the door initially. They didn't know what they were doing but they sensed sentient reality like no generation before. They were seeking free love and ended up with free sex, a far different result.
For me, it became a race between sanity and losing my mind. I've won the race. I hope my words allow some others to do so, also, with a great deal less effort..
You cannot imagine how difficult the last fifteen years have been. I already wrote the poem, "Leaning", my dear. I don't know what else to say other than thank you. The myriad ways you helped cannot even be counted. I can really stand upright, now. I've broken entirely through the stupour. Thank you. In so many ways, you are the personification of Gaia.
There is, I'm sure, still a lot to be explained but it is no longer that awful burden to do so. I am also absolutely certain, now, that someone else can carry on, if it comes to that. No, I'll go further than that. People will carry on exploring the twisted fate prehumanity followed, for at least one hundred years from the time Humanity finally catches on. The trek to seek clarity will become a shared experience, just as love will become a shared experience.
They will also ... well, it's hard to tell what will happen, what lies ahead, once the other 90% of our brain is freed from all of the foolishness that has held us back. I keep trying to pick away at it but prophecy is not acceptable. It is also so much more difficult than extrapolating the awful present into the future.
Scenario planning might be a better way to look at it but there is so little with which to work with certainty at this point, other than the dissolution of dystopia will be the far most radical change since life first existed on the planet. (i have to mention here how often i look up words that i use and find them stunningly suitable)
It is rather staggering to look at it in a different way. It may give me some definitive clue as to what I've known all along. It is really difficult to admit that we have been acting like such idiots for so long. It may be the biggest hurdle for prehumanity to overcome. What a shock it must seem to realize we are little better than all of our predecessors, from apes to Neanderthal. Maybe more appropriate would be to say what a shock it must be to realize that, with a single step, we can become so much more.
Is prehumanity, in its very warped way, somehow proud of its accomplishments? In horror, I must accept that as a very real possibility. Is that what impedes the acceptance that we can be so much more? I don't think it's that simple but it may very well be a factor.
It's much like I say in Forward Vision. We should all be in awe to stand upon a time in which infinity splits so decisively. Standing at the split infinity between the awful past of the prehuman that might as well be an animal and the amazing future of the Human that launches life into further wonders of existence will only happen once, to one lifetime of people (see TOL). No other generation will ever experience the reality, as Santayana notes so perfectly in Aphorisms.
Living through something is far different from reporting on it after it has occurred, no matter the depth of available information. There will be detailed info on prehumans spanning a few hundred years to analyze by Humans. It's not the same as living through it. I still wonder if Humanity will bother. There will be so many issues, lies, and prehuman detritus to clean up, they may not bother with delving in depth into the horror of a race that is, essentially, little different from the Neanderthals or apes. Or, they may just move on in every way as the detritus left fades away without effort. I just can't say at this point.
The mark in time that humanity catches on and it begins is the only real unknown. The longer it takes, the more of a mess will need to be cleaned up. It's already awful bad. It's so bad, sometimes it makes me physically ill.
I am beginning to believe I am somehow very closely attached to Gaia. [So are you, my dear. I sure wish we could meet. This strange tete-a-tete we have been having makes my heart leap but leaves a lot to be desired. Oh, yeah, I am convinced. Finally. The multiple so very indirect messages are finally clear. Thank you for that. There's just so much more to comprehend. Private conversations would be so helpful. I know it's very possible I have made that virtually impossible but, if so, I am so sorry. There's one poem I would love to post but, well, it's rather private! But, then again, they all are, I guess.]
I will add that, while I am certain that men can succeed at Loving Coitus, most important is for the male gender to own up to the fact that they have not succeeded at Loving Coitus for three millennia. I don't know if that is possible without success or how it will play out. It almost certainly has to start by some number of young men finally learning to love with utter confidence, thus retaining their self-respect. Will the male gender accept it with ease or will the old fogies fight it tooth and nail. What will it take to prove it beyond the shadow of a doubt? I guess, even here, there are layers. There is proving that men can consistently enable Loving Coitus. Will that be enough to accept the radical change it will cause for the human race?
I've run into a lot of pugnacious men that rebel against the idea that Loving Coitus is necessary since, even though they have failed at Loving Coitus, they did find other ways to provide ecstasy for their woman. As I have always said, Kudos, as long as you didn't need to pay for a pill to do so. That is not Human in any way. If we get to the point that all men would accept some alternative and put away their jillion different ways to dodge the issue, would that be enough?
If I am right (I am certain I am) and any man can learn to succeed at Loving Coitus without turning his life upside down, then we are not Human until it becomes an accepted fact. (in fact, if you read Backwards, you will see that Loving Coitus will turn what is upside-down right-side up)
I think the reason that is true is in the whole nature of being sentient. Clarity, I guess, explains it best. If it is possible (it is), it must be done. Maybe it is a matter of the human race having full confidence in itself (not to mention loving expression and Fusion).
Nothing is impossible. That has been what drove me for a lifetime (really; i can remember that thought first at about eight years old).
A conversation
I keep coming back to the point that just a few men succeeding, with the necessary backdrop of their understanding the importance of success for the male gender as a whole, will start the avalanche into our Human state. That is why I spent the last fifteen years writing all of this. It is not enough for a man to succeed, if he thinks that is all there is to it. The male gender has to get it through its head that it can love. The male gender must succeed. Any man that succeeds and does not make the effort to pass along both how to succeed and the bigger picture that it is necessary for the human race to achieve its Humanity has failed. I'm going to leave it at that.