I have been writing a lot of late.
As I look at it all, I hope that some begin to grasp what I had to contend with, what I had to juggle in my mind for fifteen years or sixty, depending on how you count. That's really the only reason for this post. The point, as I see it, is to make it easier for everyone else to kick that door in. It is the culmination of a journey the human race has been on since the beginning. As far as I am concerned, it was the Flower Power generation that kicked in the door initially. They didn't know what they were doing but they sensed sentient reality like no generation before.
Fo me, it has always seemed like a race between sanity and losing my mind. I've won the race. I hope some others can do so, also.
You cannot imagine how difficult the last fifteen years have been. I already wrote the poem, "Leaning", my dear. I don't know what else to say other than thank you. The myriad ways you helped cannot even be counted. I can really stand upright, now. I've broken entirely through the stupour. Thank you. There's, I'm sure, still a lot to explain but it is no longer that awful burden to do so. I am absolutely certain, now, that someone else can carry on, if it comes to that. No, I'll go further than that. People will carry on exploring the twisted fate humanity followed, for at least one hundred years from the time Humanity catches on. They will also ... well, it's hard to tell what will happen, what lies ahead, once the other 90% of our brain is freed from all of the foolishness that has held us back. All of the pieces are really beginning to fit together.
It is rather staggering to look at it in this way. It is really difficult to admit that we have been acting like such idiots for so long. It's much like I say in Forward Vision. We should all be in awe to stand upon a time in which infinity splits so decisively. To be standing between the awful past of the prehuman and the amazing future of the Human will only happen once, to one lifetime of people. No other generation will ever experience the reality, as Santayana notes so perfectly in Aphorisms.
The mark in time that humanity catches on is the only real unknown. The longer it takes, the more of a mess will need to be cleaned up. It's already awful bad. It's so bad, sometimes it makes me physically ill. I am beginning to believe I am somehow very closely attached to Gaia. So are you, my dear. I sure wish we could meet. This strange tete-a-tete we have been having makes my heart leap but leaves a lot to be desired. Oh, yeah, I am convinced. Finally. The multiple messages are clear. There's just so much more to comprehend. Private conversations would be so helpful. I know it's very possible I have made that virtually impossible but, if so, you misunderstand. There's one poem I would love to post but, well, it's private!
I will add that, while I am certain that men can succeed at Loving Coitus, most important is for the male gender to own up to the fact that they have not succeeded at Loving Coitus for three millennia. I don't know if that is possible without success. If not?
I've run into a lot of pugnacious men that rebel against the idea that even though they have failed at Loving Coitus, they did find other ways to provide ecstasy for their woman. As I have always said, Kudos, as long as you didn't need to pay for a pill to do so. That is not Human in any way. If we get to the point that all men would accept some alternative and put away their jillion different ways to dodge the issue, that may be enough.
But, if I am right (which I am certain I am) and any man can learn to succeed at Loving Coitus, then we are not Human until it becomes an accepted fact. I think the reason that is true is in the whole nature of being sentient. I wish I could explain better. Maybe it is a matter of the human race having full confidence in itself (besides loving expression and Fusion). Nothing is impossible. That has been what drove me for a lifetime. Yeah, I'm probably getting all maudlin and not really adding much in this post of importance. I'm not saying anything here that I haven't said before, I guess.
A conversation
I keep coming back to the point that just a few men succeeding, with the necessary backdrop of their understanding the importance of success for the male gender as a whole, can start the avalanche into our Human state. That is why I spent the last fifteen years writing all of this. It is not enough for a man to succeed, if he thinks that is all there is to it. The male gender has to get it through its head that it can love. The male gender must succeed. Any man that succeeds and does not make the effort to pass along the bigger picture of the human race achieving our Humanity by the male gender learning the lesson has failed. I'm going to leave it at that.